have a precious moment of free time but all of my hobby projects are in a state of having very difficult to solve problems that need solving in order to move ahead. bleh.
i have somehow lost my best breadboard
devastated. gonna have to buy some more.
i am reviving the discrete transistor computer project for the n-th time
having to write javascript at work, coding in lisp or forth at home feels so much better!
i got diagnosed with autism in 2009/2010 and my family basically said no, and then i pretty much never went back to that psychologist, and then never talked about it ever again
in the past few years loads of people have immediately assumed that i am neurodivergent and it has been startling
i'm 34 in february and i cannot explain to you how mashed up my brain feels sometimes, being denied support and having to enter patterns of crisis just to get help has affected me deeply
not really sure what else to say but if i had kids and they asked me for help, comfort, and acceptance, i would fucking give it to them
this part of the year is the hardest for me
one part of it is the weather: persistent, dry 40 degree celsius heat, i can barely think or breathe sometimes. sleeping is difficult, and when i cannot sleep i am a total wreck.
i had my first psychotic attack at this time of the year, everything about the heat puts me in this head space.
the other part is human and social: turning up for the family, taking my place in the pecking order, and putting on a mask for hours/days on end.
this year i have come to dread it. to them, i am the disabled, failed, idiot black sheep of the family. "doctor, lawyer, engineer, dead to me": and i dropped out of law school in disgust.
i am sick of being asked if i am taking my meds if i don't look perfectly happy. it feels like i am just a problem to be managed. has anyone else had a parent or guardian listen to a doctor instead of you?
for the last few months i have had nothing to say to any of them. none of them have ever had any interest in me, despite my efforts to try and get praise from them. none of them actually know me, they actually never bothered to try.
Yesterday I bought a book for my nephew, just now I realised who the authors are. @ghalfacree @benev
The cloud is just someone else's computer, and they probably don't back it up as often as you'd like. Better keep those important files on a disk locally at two different locations, just in case. 😉
Our new #VRChat world project is out - Bluesky Firehose VR! It's a live feed of all posts on Bluesky, as obtained through the ATProto firehose. @luna@f.l4.pm and I really cooked on this. PCVR, Quest, desktop, and mobile compatible. #MadeWithVRChat
#AusPal #TransYouth #TransRights #Perth #WesternAustralia #LibbyMettam #LiberalPartyOfAustralia
Good morning to everyone except Libby fucking Mettam and her Liberal party.
https://www.outinperth.com/libby-mettam-steps-up-campaign-to-ban-puberty-blockers-for-trans-youth/
The first Floppy Disk was released closer to World War 1 than to today.
Y’all, not only are people being arrested nonsensically for terrorism because the healthcare industry suddenly realized that if you kick a dog enough, eventually it will bite you, apparently they’ve decided that the public should not have facts or data that may lead them to understand how badly the insurance industry is managing the health of Americans.
ValuePenguin, a data collection and analysis site, is the origin of the viral chart showing denial rates of claims to insurance. They were first contacted by a company who wanted them to take data down, then when they didn’t, law enforcement showed up.
Just in case you were wondering who controls the cops...it’s the capital class.
Here’s a deep dive into how insurance companies hide and prevaricate their data, so that people don’t realize what crooks they all are.
Here’s the VP link for the chart and their notes about data takedown:
https://www.valuepenguin.com/health-insurance-claim-denials-and-appeals
#UHC #insurance #healthcare